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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Alright, finally, I'm going to update with something not about bowling, and nothing about the life of a Saint(me).
And so, it was a usual morning, I woke up at 0550, washed up and left house for school. Nothing special happened, but as I was on the bus, I remembered the conversation with Wennee and reminisced about my youthful and passionate days with someone so dear, that letting go was like asking me to stop bowling. Anyway, I learnt to let go, and also learnt to live with less of her, but that took me more than 1 year.
Alright, side track, I don't remember how Wennee and I talked about her, but Wennee then wanted a photograph of her, so, I sent it to her. And after that, we were talking crap, when Wennee asked me why didn't I try again. This question she asked, sparked me to think on the bus this morning...
Well, I don't really know why didn't I try again. Firstly, it's not like Math, which allows me to try and try till I get the answer. And, secondly, I think I lack the courage and the self-esteem, cause' I've always thought I'm not worthy of her, and ended up being possessive. However, I've learnt a lesson, and like I always say, "It's alright to fail, as long as you learn from your mistake."
Anyway, if I ever try again, it won't be really beneficial because at that time, 'O'Levels were so near I could feel it, enough said. And if you ask why didn't I try after that? I can only say, I didn't have the courage, once again. Anyway, even if, a very big if, I succeed, JC life will be too hectic, and since I'm not academically inclined, I won't have enough time for tutorials, BOWLING, friends, PW(for first year) and more. So, I think, the lack of courage kinda' saved me from the trouble of picking pieces of my heart.
I'm really envious of people like Aaron Wee, my fellow senior from SAJC and pal from XsT, because he met a girl in secondary 2 if I'm not wrong, and they ARE still together right now, which is like 5 to 6 years? Anyway, Aaron, if you're reading this, I wish you all the best, and remember to invite the XsTs to your wedding dinner. :D
I managed to remember what I wanted to say from morning till now, haha, my memory is good eh? Anyway, I've to thank Wennee cause' without her, I won't be able to think of a topic not related directly to bowling and the life of a Saint; but thanks to her, I've lost some of my brain cells which could be used for the FM lectures this morning.
I would like to sign off with an important question I posted to myself in the bus, "When will the torch I'm carrying burn out?"
Tuckie Wuckie Duckie signing out. (Nigel always calls me that, haha. )
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