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Sunday, December 25, 2005
The very this day last year was absolutely splendid - because I had a great time at this Special Person(SP)'s house. In contrast, this year, there wasn't even any exchange between this SP, SP's family and I. I feel terrible. They have treated me dearly, and have already settled down in a corner of my heart. I do not wish to find any excuses for myself, but it was plain forgetfulness and I lost track of the time while rushing through my holiday assignments. I really feel bad.
Well, I'm not sure why, but they have always been in my mind. Maybe because I've not learnt to let go yet? Just learnt how to live without this SP and SP's family? I read about this blog, http://trompeloeil.blogspot.com, on the Straits Times and decided to read it. The post, "Easing the Door Shut", is a really good post. It really got my eyes a little wet because it brings back memories. Well, you guys should read some other of his/her posts, because it's really not bad.
Well, frankly speaking, my age is inversely proportional to the interest and enthusiasm towards Christmas; basically because Christmas is so near to the day school reopens. To make things worse, examinations become more and more important as I further my studies. And next year is the year I am going to sit for my 'A'Levels Examinations. Christmas is almost lost.
Looking back, the importance and significance of having Christmas diminishes year-after-year after I realise the existence of Santa is nothing but a story. Thinking again, if I'm not wrong, Christmas is actually all about caring and sharing, celerating the birth of Christ, and that's why there's the exchange of gifts and family reunions. Yet, I don't feel the Christmas spirit - sad but true. I hate to face this fact. Reality sucks.
Thankfully, our family actually tried gathering at my aunt's house to have a Christmas lunch, though not all of them were present. Looking at my cousins, who were so little and tiny a few years back, makes me realise time really f**king flies. The adults were also aging. As I scanned through the dining hall, I kept wondering what will all our futures be like. Will we still be gathering? Will we be blinded by greed like most Singaporeans already are? Maybe I think too much.
Anyway, I have 1 Christmas present which ain't that bad, you know? Haha. It's a book of Sudoku puzzles from my aunt on the maternal side. She's the one who always gives presents. Courteous too. I've always liked her, ever since I saw my uncle marry her. NOT AS IN THAT KINDA LIKED, but you know... yeah. Maybe I should get her something next year. May god bless her.
Hmmm, well, I think I'm going off now, to start on the Sudoku puzzles. :) Shall update before school reopens if I can. Meanwhile, Merry Christmas to everyone! May the Christmas spirit be up again, spreading the spirit of "care and share".
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Rash. Don't you think the Australians, who are targeting at people of the middle-eastern descent, are too rash?
Firstly, not all Islam-followers are terrorists or a part of the attacks. Secondly, if they start beating and killing these people, don't you think these people will end up resenting the Westerners more; and in the end believing that the terrorists are doing the right thing - bombing?
At this point of time, when terrorism is invisible and could be present anywhere and everywhere, social defence is important, man. In addition, what terrorism rely on is the recruitment of people. No people, no terrorists. Moreover, in my opinion, I believe the terrorists bomb places to instill hate towards the Muslims so that the Muslims will head towards the terrorists for help - out of despair. If our Muslim brothers and sisters do not resent or hate any part of the country they live in, there's no reason why they should join forces with the terrorists.
SO, the bottom line here is that I'm worried, something that's much more undesirable than the clashes, is imminent.
Song recommendation: My Chemical Romance - Cemetery Drive
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
The day school-reopens is drawing really near, which means the long-awaited holidays will be over. I'm carrying a heavy burden as I'm typing this post, because I still have tonnes of holiday assignments that are yet to be completed. These assignments include Math(thankfully I completed this), Physics, Chemistry and the always dreaded GP. GP is like a soporifc tune which really makes me drowsy and sleepy. Well, sadly but realistically, GP is pivotal in getting me a place in the local universities. Therefore, I have to get a Black King Bar(it's an item in DOTA that gives immunity to spells) somehow so as not to be affected by the evil spell of sleepiness.
Anyway, I'm writing this post because my little pal, wennee, is squealing for me to update. =D
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Are maids that important in the present world? How do you ensure that you pick The ONE? Do you think your standards are too high? Will you be able to trust them?
Well, statistically, more maids have been employed, and inevitably, more abuse cases are reported as well. I read an article recently talking about how generous this employer, a doctor, is to his maid; for example, bringing the maid's daughter to Singapore to study and pay her school fees. I was seriously appalled at how generous this guy is; and as I expected - he is not a pure Singaporean, but a hong-konger who came to Singapore. His generosity and kindness is laudable. However, I will not deny the fact that I'm generalising, but frankly speaking, I think Singaporeans are on the stingy side.
And so, coming to this stingy part of Singaporeans, I think some really go too far; for example, paying the maid as little as the former can, and expects her to slog 24/7. With regards to this, the employer I talked about above, said something that was printed on the papers, "Maids have emotions and feelings too." I very much agree with this statement.
I've had maids, I have seen maids crying(not my maid of course - I'm no sadist). Some maids are really good, but some are really foolish. The good ones are super efficient, learn fast, usually demure, soft-spoken and really loves kids. I'm not generalising, the stated qualities come in a "package" - I swear. Usually those who are considered good by my aunts, uncles and parents have these qualities. Those that aren't good COULD have these qualities, but have "qualities" like crafty, cunning, and TOO daring; one of them even go to the extent of stealing(not any of my maids, thankfully).
I really don't know man, some maids are really super good. They taught me Malay, I taught them Mandarin and English. Even though when I was younger, I tend to get them to do almost everything for me(LOL, I really admit to this. Well, but you can't blame me, I was a spoilt brat, until I became a scout which got me to be more independent). Maids can really be good friends.
Hmmm, well, maid-abusing is not always the employers' fault, I have to say. Some maids are really very very evil. In the crepuscular gloom of the night lights in the house, some evolve into evil beings, while some show their true forms as angels of the Lord.
I guess sometimes, these things are beyond our control. If you're destined to pick a wicked maid, you'll get her, man. My family was really lucky, but I know of people who are not so lucky. Well, the best solution to all these - do not get a maid... unless you really need to, but I wish you luck.
Monday, November 28, 2005
Just got back from the S14 barbecue, which was only attended by 10 people - as usual though. The usual barbecue stuffs, nothing really special happened. The company was pretty good I guess - joy, laughter and fun.
Ere I forget, I have to make some "noise" about missing the award for the top 10% in school, which was seriously infuriating. Sigh, guess I just underestimated the number of people above me. I got the top 25% merit bursary instead, but sadly, my family income is more than $3000. One thing intriguing, is that why did they make the $3000 a prerequisite condition? Is $3000 really a lot? Why don't they make the award a $150 for people $3000 and more, and $300 for those less than $3000? Why did they deprive us of the reward? For me, even a mere $50 reward motivates me. People might say I'm "yao gui", but shouldn't this serve as a motivation AND reward rather than only A reward? I know I'm complaining, and I should have worked harder, or you might say I'm just not smart enough, BUT, I strongly believe rewarding those students, whose families have income more than $3000, is a good idea. MOE has to fork out more money, but I'm sure they can afford to, or just like what I suggested, cut down on the reward. What's more, shouldn't they have a record of all the family incomes? Sending the letter informing that I got the into the top 25% is just a waste of paper, ink and manpower(even though it'll create more jobs, but these people can be put to better use, I'm sure).
Hmmm, I think that's enough of complaining. Anyway, I'm kind of hooked onto songs by My Chemical Romance(MCR). Though their lyrics may be a little too much for some songs, but their songs are not bad.
All right, it's 0040, and the sounds, the keyboard give out as I type this, are a little soporifc, and I'm getting drowsy and sleepy. Not forgetting about tomorrow's training which is in the morning. So, I think I'd better go to bed. 'Till next time.
We'll dance alone to the tune of your death...
Thursday, November 24, 2005
It has been at least 30 hours since I slept due to the class chalet I had; ironically, I'm not sleepy. I tried sleeping, but to no avail.
Anyway, I was playing TFC, and my door bell rang. Initially I thought it was the caterer, but the deliveryman came earlier on, which means this person had gotta' be a stranger(ALL my family members hold the door bell down for 3 consecutive rings). Naturally, and instinctively, I open the door.
"Good afternoon sir! I'm selling these tickets for teenagers from single-parent families, who are between 12 to 21...," the girl went.
Well, people who know me well will know nothing matters more than the price. I searched every corner of the ticket to see how much it was ere I make a big mistake of purchasing something that's "overkill-ed". The figure that was printed on the ticket totally shocked me - $10.
"OMFGWTFSMLJ!? It's freakin' $10? I don't have that kinda' money man. (I'm kinda' hard up now you see) I seriously think I should just reject her," I thought.
"Hey man, I'm really sorry, but I'm really short of cash. Really sorry. Sorry man," I proceeded on to blabber hoping she'll really understand.
Guess what? She gave me this "I'm-not-gonna-believe-that-dumb-excuse-you-just gave-sir!" look, and just turned around. Her joyous expression and gorgeous smile, that coruscated shafts of sunlight, turned to an expression that's filled with displease and disappointment.
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I mean, seriously, why the hell would I want to lie to her, man? Why can't she just give me the benefit of the doubt? I think the world's really becoming more distrusting, man. Well, if she really doesn't believe what I had said, then, I can only say, "That's too bad, my friend, you just came at the wrong time."
Even though I've never tried selling such tickets before to strangers, but at least I've been through flag days, man. I know how it feels like to be treated like you are transparent or even like a pest! That was why I gave her the best smile I could ever give at that moment, and even said so many "sorrys". Com'on, give me a break.
P.S. I've really gotta start on my assignments! Yap actually completed the FM assignment! Horrid!
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Gullible. I'm just too gullible sometimes.
I bought ice-cream(the kind that you cut into slices and put the slices in between biscuits or bread) from this teenager, who rang my doorbell, last night. The reason why I even opened the damn door it's because he saw me when I went to retrieve the container brought to my house by the caterer.
"Good evening sir, I'm a basketballer from Woodlands. I'm selling ice-cream to raise funds for my team because we do not have sufficient resources to purchase jerseys. It's only 12 dollars and it comes with a packet of biscuits. It's 12 dollars because I have to pay back to the company and get some money for myself as well," he said, with that smile, and eyes gleaming with hope, that I'll buy it from him.
I was contemplating on whether to purchase it. I was looking at him from top to toe to see if he was lying and see if his dress code would give him away. He was wearing a black t-shirt, a pair of basketball shorts, and a pair of slippers. His hair was combed into a "centre-parting" style.
I thought to myself, "Hmmm, looks like a basketballer, but is he really from Woodlands? Is his team really encountering some financial difficulties? I wouldn't freaking know! Well, let's say if he's a basketballer, he's really got the passion for basketball to be able to spend his evenings and even afternoons out here selling ice-creams. I guess, that's really respectable. Hmmm, but if he's not a basketballer, I guess he's quite a good liar because he should be quite smart if he can think of such a lie that aims to touch people with their passion for something."
I decided to buy the ice-cream from him.
Later that night, my father came back and said he bought ice-cream too. I noticed the familar packaging and asked him if it's the same guy. He said no, and proceeded on to say that he bought the ice-cream for 10 dollars.
I was stunned instantaneously. So that guy actually lied to me about the price, and not what his aim was.
I actually missed out the part which he said that he had to charge me more expensive because he needs the extra few dollars for his team.
"Shouldn't the company pay them the commision and not allow them to increase the price of the ice-cream?" I thought to myself, with anger overpowering me.
I just hope that the ice-cream is nice. I just hope.
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Training was great, quite fun. Haha. Didn't bowl with the team for quite some time other than ZX and Nig. It feels strange, maybe because there was a long period of hiatus to mug for the promotional examinations. Anyway, things seem to be all right and going smooth. Hopefully all promote, especially CH.
It just isn't really good to be retained. I don't know how it feels, but I'm sure no one wants to be retained.
I'm Sympathetic.
With regards to school stuff, both my FM tutors/lecturers are leaving. One leaving to work in MOE, the other retiring(I think). I seriously think the FM lectures and tutorials won't be the same anymore, because there's this "kinship" between us now(especially when one of them is my CT, and I'm the CG rep!); maybe not to everyone, but to me, I'm really getting used to their paces, methods of teaching, and almost everything about them. I'm not sure if I'll be able to love FM as much as I did. Teachers usually influence me, as to whether I'll like that subject(It's the same case in primary school and secondary school). Beats me if you're asking why. Anyway, I guess, I just have to face up to the upcoming changes and learn to accept and adapt to it.
Well... just gonna wish them all the best.
Be in the Strike Zone
Monday, October 17, 2005
In addition to the previous post, I got an A for Math overall. Was quite elated to find out that I got 86/100 for the final exam. However, after including Common Test, tests, attendance, and attitude, I only got 79. Well, but it's still an 'A', so can't really ask for more.
Even though GP's never my strong subject, I'll never forget about mentioning it here. Some background information before I go to the grade: I've never scored higher than 50 marks, and my highest was 48, during the promotional examinations - basically, my GP's bad. However, to my surprise, I got a C5 for the overall grade, although I only had 46 got Common Test. Well, I think the main reason why I could get C5, is because of the daily assignments, like essays and compositions. I did pretty well for some essays assigned to us, so maybe that's the reason; but come to think of it, it can't possibly be of such a big percentage. Haha, I think I'll just stop thinking of how come I could get C5, and just settle for 56.5 university rank points.
With regards to my results, I think I did pretty all right, since there's improvement.
Anyway, thankfully, most got promoted in my class, except one. Hopefully he too will be able to promote, probably with conditions and stuff like that.
Shall update again if I have any to post.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Eager, excited and anxious.
I sat in the classroom waiting for the Physics paper. I was hoping for an overall 'B'(including tests, attendance, and Common Test).
After an insufferable 15-minute wait, my tutor came. I wasn't really bothered by her expression which usually gave away some hints on how well we did, because my eyes were fixated on that plastic bag with the papers in it. I was really anxious because I didn't do well for my Common Test - 'D'. Well, so I was hoping I can do well and get my up to a 'B'. However, I only did well enough to pull me up to a 'C'. I would have to say I wasn't exactly disappointed, but just not as happy, because I've improved by a grade from Common Test anyhow.
I checked for any errors in the calculation of the marks - no, then proceeded to keep the papers in my bag. And, the waiting continues.
Alright, the next paper after Physics was the Chinese Language which I did not have to take; so I'll skip the details.
With much anticipation, and sitted in the AVA, I was predicting what grade I'll get for F Math, trying to recall how many marks I calculated that I'll lose.
Before I could recall, Web and Ed had already came with the scripts and were giving them out. Alright, I got section B first, which was the section of FMB, and I got a 33/40, with a sticker with 2 big apples and a word "Good". My heart was racing, because I just needed a 42/60 from section A(FMA) to get an A!
The moment came, I could see Web's hand coming across whoever was sitting beside and straightening it towards my direction. That few seconds were almost in slow motion. "42! 42! 42!" I chanted to myself.
"Awwww...," it was a 39.5. I got a B, 72.5. Even though it wasn't an A, I was almost leaping with joy, but I'll be viewed as a childish, girly retard; I calmed myself down from all the excitement because there still was Chemistry and General Paper. (If I'm not wrong, I think I got a 'B' for overall. From a 'C' from Common Test to a 'B'. :D)
We were back to the designated classroom. Yet again, I was predicting what grade will I get for Chemistry. However, what was different was that I had more confidence in the Chemistry paper than both the F Math and Physics papers. Without a doubt, my expectation for Chemistry was higher. Yet something tells me I should not be expecting too much...
The Chemistry paper was back in my hands. I wasn't really thinking much when my tutor was briefing us about the break-down and miscellaneous, except whether that feeling I had earlier on was an ominous hint.
Jack and Jill went up the hill,
To fetch a pail of water.
Jack fell down and broke his crown,
And Jill came tumbling down.
My heart experienced what Jill experienced. I did not really do well for the paper, and ended up with a 63 for overall - 'C'. "Darn, it's just a mere two marks! Where did they go to?!" I thought. I got a B for Common Test and actually aimed to get a B for the overall grade! Well, I was actually sighing and just kept wondering what went wrong, when a thought came suddenly, "Hey man, it's just 2 marks short, you got close, work harder next time." I felt much better, because there wasn't anything I could do, so I just kept the papers and thought nothing about it.
And it's down to the final paper of the day - General Paper! Alright, I expected a C6, and true enough I got 48 marks after moderation. Well, don't ask me why is there moderation. Haha. I wasn't anxious or excited about the General Paper results, because I knew I screwed paper 1 up. I wasn't really giving what the question was asking for. So, well, was just happy I scraped through and could get 2 university rank points.
The result left unknown is Math. My tutor couldn't complete marking for some reason or other. Well, can't really blame my tutor or anything. We're all human beings. Furthermore, not only must my tutor mark the scripts of my class, other scripts from all the F Math classes have to be marked by my tutor as well. Well, yeah, so I guess I gotta wait till Monday. Hopefully I'll get an 'A' for the overall.
'ABC', haha, I guess it looks pretty good, much better than 'CCB', or 'DOO'(Scooby DOO), or any of the weird combinations. Haha.
Well, I think I'll only know if I'm satisfied after getting back my result for the Math paper. So, shall update on this later.
P.S. Jer: If you're reading this, I guess you just have to accept it and move on. Don't reproach yourself. If you have the issue of Newsweek with the one about "Stress and Your Heart", go read it. Stress might kill! Good luck and all the best to you.
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I had an outing with my classmates from the class in first three months. Well, it was supposed to be a class outing, but only about 10 showed up.
We met at Orchard station, because we intended to eat at Seoul Garden, but it was closed! Without any choice, the group of us walked back to the station and headed to Marina for steamboat.
Well, it wasn't that bad wasting time walking here and there and waiting, because we could catch up with one another about what was going on in their schools, their lives, their interesting experiences, and both funny and lame jokes. It was great.
Thankfully, it wasn't that crowded and we could get a table upon reaching our destination. When everything was ready and everyone got their utensils, no one hesitated to grab food. Well, maybe 'cause of the fact that it was way past dinner time. Everyone was hungry from the walking, waiting, chatting and laughing.
The cycle of take-cook-eat continued until it was approximately 2115, apart from Web, Ang and I who went to Marina Superbowl to hang out earlier at around 2100, since it could shelter us from the smoke and smell and it is also air-conditioned.
The rest joined us shortly after they finished eating and we just sat there talking to one another.
It was until Jun Zhe suggested we go to Star Bucks at Citylink that we got our butts up. We were there without Am, Hen and Ang, chatting and laughing yet again.
All of us left at 2300 because Web could not afford to miss his bus. Everyone was quiescent by then, since it was late and we were all exhausted from the activities we had in the day. Home, we went.
Nothing much happened actually. However, well, just glad we were still quite close even after quite a number of months...
Sunday, October 09, 2005
At the moment, I'm sending messages via MSN or SMS to people whom I think I have taken photographs with during the Grad Night last year. Why? On impulse, I decided to read through the posts that I have posted in the past, and read a post which mentioned the Grad Night. It sparked me that I have not gotten the photographs taken back then, from anyone, regardless of whether I'm included in the photograph. So... I asked a number of people, and found two photographs with myself in it. There should be more, and hopefully I'll get more of the photographs with myself in it. (Note: I'm not obssessed with myself, but I do not think that I should ask people for photographs of others. Well... so yeah.)
Anyway, the 2 photographs were pretty well-taken. The photographs gave me vivid recollections of what happened back then. Unknowingly, I started smiling to myself as I recalled about the laughters and the fun we had. Albeit the fact that the food we had that night wasn't exactly worth our money, the company of my friends outweighed everything. Unfortunately, not all of my close friends attended the dinner...
On that fateful night, as I bade goodbye to those who were on the same train as I was, many things came into my mind. Being someone who thinks a lot, and especially during the night, I could not help but think of what will really happen to us as we age and progress. I just kept thinking as I was on the familiar route back home.
Today, we're all busy with the commitments and burdens laid upon us. Friends whom we do not see everyday start to fade away, slowly and silently. Why? I'm not sure why, because it happens to me too!
After reading the previous posts, I proceeded on to ask my friends for the photographs. Not only did I ask them for the photographs, I took a little time off from my games, and chatted with them. And getting to know that they are fine and enjoying life is indeed heartening. I also sent Gary a message asking him how were the Promotional Examinations. Even though we are in the same campus, our lecture timetables were very different, maybe because he takes Biology, whereas I take F Math and Physics. I only get to see him during the Chemistry lectures and in the morning when he's sitting down with his friends. Yet, all these times when I see him, we seemed to only have the time to smile and wave to each other...
Perhaps, just perhaps, we should just stop what we're doing for a while, and probably catch up with the ALMOST forgotten friends who are dangling by the edge of your memories. I'm sure we can afford to spare a couple of minutes- I'm sure.
People say that friends come and go. However, do our friends go because they want to? They have to? Or simply because we let them go? Well, it could be a mixture of reasons, but I believe, in most cases, especially in such a fast paced society, friends come and are just simply forgotten.
So, have you forgotten your friends? :)
*Disclaimer: This is not a post to help any of the providers earn money. You can choose your own form of contact IF you think you want to ask how your friends are getting along.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
The Promotional Examinations ended yesterday- finally. Regarding the papers, I think they are moderately manageable, and getting a B-grade should not be a problem. Hopefully, I hope I do not make too many careless mistakes or else... it'll be disastrous.
The only careless mistake that I know of is the one that I made while attempting the Vectors question of the F Math paper. Unfortunately, I spotted the mistake too late, and could only amend the answer for part iii, and not part iv. Thankfully, I did not commit the mistake in part i, or else, 12 marks will fly away- just like that. Hmmm, I hope there won't be anymore careless mistakes because it's the most horrible, devastating, and painful way to lose marks.
Well, I guess I can only wait till next week to collect my scripts to see how many marks I get and where the marks are lost to.
Anyway, I went with RM to get his ball fixed because he was complaining that his thumb cannot exit smoothly. Besides accompanying him, I wanted to change the inserts of SlayR and the Target Zone, cause' the inserts were getting too loose, and I can't hang onto the ball long enough which causes me to drop the ball at the foul line.
After changing the inserts and getting RM's ball fixed, we went to Victors to bowl. Oh my, I really lost everything. No timing, no free swing. Very bad, really very disappointed and disheartened. I guess I just have to get back to my coach and get him to coach me privately. Not exactly much to talk about, just that the inserts are great, I could hang onto the ball much longer and get more revs on the ball. Hmmm... great feeling I have to say.
Well, I guess I can't be impatient with these things. :(
Let's not talk about it anymore, since it's already the past and Uncle Henry told us that what's over is over. So... yeah...
Hmmm, there's actually SPA on Monday, but I don't know the question, which means I can only memorise the answers for the anomalous observations and the tables- so not much to prepare. Anyway, with the end of the Promotional Examinations, there'll be 3 days of marking days, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. And I think we'll be dismissed pretty early except on Thursday due to PW Day. Yes, you did not read wrongly, it's PW Day. Haha, so I think I'll be bowling again on either Tuesday or Wednesday.
Hopefully, the next time I bowl, will be better. Hopefully.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
First things first, I think my EoM sh*t is settled. Wait, before you think zaobao has replied me - they did not reply. And so why is my EoM settled? Reason is that I have found an old article that I have cleanly forgotten about. It is an article that spurred me to do my Preliminary Ideas(PI) and after reading through it, I convinced myself that I'll be able to provide an evaluation that is of certain standards, and the EoM is officially settled(though I have not done a new one yet :p).
Hey hey, short post, gonna' complete Complex Numbers tutorial, revision, EoM before coming back to re-post. :D
Monday, August 15, 2005
I can't believe it, my EoM is rejected because the article I evaluated is written purely in Chinese.
Seriously, it's not the rejection that angers me, it's how information is not passed to me. There were so many lectures, so many tutorials, so many reminders, but none said of anything about the language the article must be written in.
I've to admit it was partly our fault for choosing such a "rare" topic, but we proceeded on because that article of mine was of a great help(now this article cannot be used). To add on, the rest of the ideas seemed to be out-of-reach and ended up being ruled out through a vote.
I'm given another week to search for a new article, and re-do my EoM. I'm considering various alternatives, but up till now, the best idea I could think of is to send an e-mail to Zaobao.com and hopefully they will get someone to translate the article for me, so that I'll have an "Official Translation from a Reliable Source".
Sigh... I guess these things happen.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Good morning! It's a great Saturday morning, and I got up at precisely 0700 hours, with 9 hours of soundless sleep. Physics revision done by 0900 hours, and here I am, typing on my keyboard at an approximate speed of 80 words per minute. Without anymore sh*t, I shall recount on what happened yesterday.
It's obvious I'll always include something about bowling, so here I go.
Went to SARFA Mount Faber yesterday, as usual, after school. Before that, played games on BK's and Angus' mobile phones. Madness. (How I wish I can get over with NS soon, and purchase a 7610 that I really like. Why after NS? Cause' we're not suppose to bring a camera-equipped mobile phone in, so that leaves me with no choice but to persevere on with the 6610 I have with me. It is not that 6610 sucks, but the keys just drive me crazy now and then when they just don't function, especially when there's an important issue for me to tend to, and the damn keys can't work. Alright, I'll stop whining and carry on.) I left at around 1400 hours. I took a walk out to the bus-stop outside Gillman Heights, the condominium Mr Lee is staying at, and took the bus. As usual, the damn bowling alley is so cold. I sat down, cooled down, and watched people bowl. Seriously, I enjoy seeing people bowl and enjoy themselves, cause' it makes me think that bowling is a fun game and I can have fun while practising. So, anyway, I changed out of my uniform, took out my balls from the back of the alley and the locker and proceeded to bowl. Hmmm, as usual, started out with a 2-step approach, since I've not been bowling for a week. 5 frames down and I started my full approach. Haha, it was a little crappy at first, cause' I'm really rigid, and can't seem to relax. But, things were getting better for the second and third games, until something cropped up again - I was pulling my shots. Crap, so haha, 4th and 5th games were bad. I tried loosening my swing, but things were still bad. So, I thought, it must be my trail leg. Haha, 6th game better, cause' it was really my trail leg's fault. I was kicking it into the air, instead of putting it on the floor. So... after loosening my swing and straightening my trail leg on the floor, I bowling the 7th, 8th and 9th game with much better results. Haha, 188(nice number!), 194, and 199(F'n wasted, a big four on the tenth frame! And I chopped one pin off!). If I can post these results for A'Div, I'll be jumping out of the alley.
There was nothing interesting except for something that happened to a group of my classmates. They skipped GP tutorial, haha, blatantly and daringly. One of them escaped DC, cause' Van Lee said she was sick. Haha, the rest all perished, cause' Mrs Goh asked Jayce, who's a Christian, and I suppose can't lie. Haha, sad case. They were asking me if I want to skip it, but anyone who knows Tuck Foong, knows that I won't skip ANY lessons. I only skipped one lecture during first three months, but can't remember which subject. Haha. Anyway, hopefully they won't get anything worse than DC, hopefully, as a CG rep, I'm really concerned for their welfare. :D
Ok, that's about all, I'll share a little something. :D
I was dead beat, and barely had the strength to lift my legs up the steps of the bus. I dug my wallet out from the pocket at the back of my pants and tapped it against the mechanism that looked a little like Tamagochi and proceeded into the bus.
There wasn't any seat that was totally empty, which means I've to share seats, which I am not comfortable with, because I do not like getting too close to a stranger. It just makes me feel insecure, unless it's someone who looks less dangerous, pretty and gives me security. However, I was in luck, there was an empty seat beside a girl who looks safe! I looked down, smiled a little to myself and took bigger steps in case someone snatches that seat from me.
"Yes!" I thought, after I got the seat.
I took a deep breath in order to calm myself from all the excitement. As I inhaled, I could smell that girl sitting beside me. It's not perfume, neither was it deodorant and I could not identify the smell, but it really makes me feel like I'm in heaven, and every breath I took, I seem to be floating towards her; just like a drug, I was really getting addicted to her smell. I began taking bigger and bigger breaths, inching closer and closer to her...
All of a sudden, she made a move, and I thought she wanted to alight, which brought my heart down to my crotch; thankfully, she was only searching for something in her bag.
"Phew! Thank god!" I said softly to myself, because firstly, she's not alighting, and secondly, she did not realise what I was doing.
She was still searching. And in order to look normal, I took out my mobile phone, and pretended that I was looking up the calendar. I took quick glances from the corner of my eye to check out if she was still searching. From that few glances, I realised she seemed to be panicking, but she looks alluring with that worried look. Suddenly, something made me turn to look instead of glancing. Her eyes were welled up with tears and they were shimmering under the soft evening sunlight.
"Excuse me, can I borrow you phone?" She turned to ask me all of a sudden while I was still stunned. Her voice was shaking a little.
My eyes captured the image of her face, upfront. At the same time, I passed her my phone, and managed to smile a little. Thereafter, I turned back to the front, rewinded the "tape" in my brain to the image of her. Ravishing. Exquisite.
A jerk from the bus snapped me out of it, and realised she was calling her own phone with my phone to see if it's really in her bag; with the other hand that's free, she rummaged through her bag again, and her elbow nearly whacked me without her knowing, but thanks to my spiderman-reflexes, I dodged it.
As her elbow was in the air, she gave me a clear view of her figure. And at that moment, I noticed that she was taking heavy breaths, with her bosoms moving back and forth. I've to admit she is endowed with great assets. Furthermore, her waist is small and due to relativity, it made her bosoms look bigger. All of her is perfect except that I could not see her smile. Glistening eyes, smooth and fair skin and sexy figure - perfection!
"She is really a luscious young lady," I thought to myself.
"Ouch!"
"Sorry!" She responded to me.
Her elbow hit me right on my head as she put it down...
I opened my eyes, and realised I hit myself on the side of the drawer beside my bed as I was turning.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
While I was doing my GP essay last night, it got me to think about the relation between pain and love. The intricacies of love, are something none of us can explain. Some people search for love to satisfy their lustful desires, some were driven by their curiosity, while some are truly looking for someone to spend their lives with.
Please don't probe why I thought about this, you might think I'm sick, but I'm not. I just think too much.
Well, after my first "love" ended 2 years and couple of months ago, I felt the pain of losing someone. This pain was like a motivation sponge, because it sucked up the motivation I had. I was devastated, maybe because it was my first time. Everything seemed like a routine after that. Wake up, study, sleep; but it was all relative. I feel that it was a routine because I used to go out very often with Her and everyday was obviously different, but I realised it was not. It was just the reluctance to accept the loss.
It can never be a routine, because you never have fun doing something that's called "routine". Friends break the "routine". I've to give credit to GSLH.
The main point of this is that the pain I experienced, changed my perspective of many things. This pain brought me closer to my family. This pain made me stronger, and taught me to let go of things. This pain was my mentor, throughout the period when I was down. And everytime I thought of how I've learnt to let go of things better, I remember a story.
This story is about an old man. He was waiting for a bus at a bus-stop, which came shortly. As he boarded the bus, one of his shoes fell out of the bus, and the bus driver who was oblivious to his reactions, drove off. The next thing he did surprised a teenager on the bus. He threw the other shoe out of the bus towards the bus-stop.
The teenager then asked, "Why did you do that, Uncle?"
"What's the point of keeping one of the shoe when it's useless and meaningless? I can never get the other back. It'll be better if I threw away the remaining one so that someone who needs shoes can have a pair instead of only one," the old man explained.
Usually, if the above scenario happened, he/she would have sweared and screamed at the bus driver. I know this story might sound stupid, but, it's just what comes to my mind.
Anyway, as I was saying, the pain taught me lots of things. With regards to this, this pain allowed me to better appreciate my family, and what they did for me. Now, without this pain, would I ever appreciate the bliss of having a caring family? No. Without this pain, will I be able to know what's family love? No.
From this, it reminds me of Newton's 3rd Law - with pain as the action force, and love as a reaction. Why? Reason being that without pain, you'll never know what is love. For example, his/her close family member pass away. Naturally, he/she will cherish and love her family members even more. I'm really doubting if he/she will ever love anyone if she did not experience the pain of losing someone.
It is true that some people appreciate their family even without going through the pain, but I hardly see anyone like them.
In my opinion, and probably my conclusion, this pain acts as a catalyst in bonding of the family.
*Disclaimer: These are just my thoughts, if offended, please tag and tell me. =)
Anyway, I'm going off for a lunch buffet at Quality Hotel soon. Haha.
By the way, I wish that all my friends will be well and may their paths towards success be smooth sailing.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
It's piping hot outside. The cold air from the air-con was really cooling and relaxing when I stepped into the room. I just reached home, after having lunch with my mother, sister, aunt and cousin at Sizzler at Toa Payoh, and after shopping for what seemed ages.
The food there was great. It has been a long time since I had a salad buffet. The fruits were great, especially the watermelon. The vegetable salads were mediocre, but, still pretty alright. I had a cup of cappucino, normal coffee, and 2 cups of English breakfast tea, since it's free flow, but I've to admit, I think I went overboard, cause' I totally forgot about the caffeine, until my cousin told me to stop cause' caffeine ain't good for health. I stopped after the the last coffee, and drank water instead.
After lunch, as usual, they'll shop, and I'll be waiting. Hmmm, sometimes, I really wonder what's so nice about shopping even though many ladies have shopping as their hobby. Hmmm, I was getting impatient maybe cause' of the scorching heat which was really unbearable. I popped my ear phones on, the ear phones that served me real long. I bought The Newpaper even though I knew I'll be wasting 70 cents on advertisements instead of real news. I fanned myself with The Newpaper while waiting for the ladies. I predicted that they'll take around half an hour, and I was totally right.
Thankfully, I got to go home first.
The door bell rang, and I went to get it. It was a girl, probably my age. She saw me and proceeded to smile. That smile that she had had me stunned for a moment because she looks enchanting with it. Her soft, silk-like hair was messed up by the breeze on the outside, but probably because of that, she looked so stunning, with a tinge of cute, kiddish look. My eyes, went downwards, and met her eyes, that are not too big, and not too small. They were brown, crystal-like, and gleaming as the sunlight reflected upon it.
"Hi, I'm from the church opposite," she said. Her lips were pinkish, not too thick and not too thin, just the right thickness I favour. The movements of her lips when she spoke, together with her clear yet soft voice seeemd like an elegant dance with her voice as the music. I wasn't focusing on the words she spoke at all.
She was wearing a white t-shirt, and a denim skirt. The white t-shirt seemed a little too tight, but it made her perfect curves obvious. Not only is she slim, she had assets which were proportional to her size. My eyes continued the scanning, and noticed her slender and smooth legs. Her feet were facing inside and made her look like a small girl as she stood shaking a little to the left and to the right.
"Hello? Can you hear me?" She raised her voice a little, maybe to ensure that I heard her.
"Oh... Errr... Hi. What can I do for you?" I replied stuttering a little.
"Are you free? I'm here to spread the word of god." She seemed a little excited.
"Oh... yes, I'm errr... free, definitely," replying with the best smile I have.
"Oh, that's great!" She exclaimed, giggled and proceeded to open the bible she held on to her chest.
"Would you ermmm... like to have a drink or something... errr... as we talk?" I asked daringly.
She was surprised and seemed to have been taken aback by what I asked; she opened her eyes bigger, with her mouth slightly ajar, with the smile gone. And I knew I had frightened her.
"Ermmm... I'm sorry, but I've to go meet my friend now. I'll come back some other time." She spoke faster than usual, closed her bible, waved, and rushed off towards the lift.
I stood motionless...
I heard a splash, and opened my eyes. I saw the water in the fish tank up in small waves, and realised I was woken up by the splash the Luo Han fish made.
Haha, I can't believe I'm having such childish fantasies at my age. Wtf. Haha.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
With the birds chirping by the window, the warmth of the sun caressing my ass, and the rumbling of the fan, I woke up. I sat on the bed with my eyes closed for quite a while, and finally stood up, opened my eyes and walked towards the mirror. I took a look at myself, gave a megawatt smile to myself, told myself that it'll be a good day, and proceeded to my tutorials.
Well, with the Promotional Examinations drawing nearer and nearer, I have no choice but to complete as much tutorials as I can and carry on with my revision. However, I have an eclectic choice of which tutorial to start first. It's not that I'm behind the lectures, but the lecturers seem to be competing with each other. For example, Mrs Gay completed Numerical Integration, Further Integration, and already more than half into Polar Co-ordinates; Mr David Chong, completed Alkanes, Alkenes and Arenes before even I can complete Alkanes tutorial. Thankfully Miss Tan is giving us more time to complete Vectors(iii), maybe because she realises we're struggling with the FM part of Vectors, but her lectures on Complex Numbers are still... as speedy as before. Even though I can keep up with her pace, but I'm afraid I might have to spend all my holidays this week to complete all the tutorials. Not to mention, I still have to complete what I planned to revise this week. And next week is already so near. If I do not complete this week's revision, I'll be stabbing myself.
Hmmm, I'm taking a break now from the tedious tutorial of Further Integration. I think I can use up one whole piece of lead for just 16A of Further Integration. Maybe I'll stop doing Further Integration and proceed to complete Vectors(iii). I hope I'll be able to complete tutorial 16A and Vectors(iii). I believe I can do it.
Anyway, I was asked to cut my hair by my Discipline Mistress, because she said it is getting bushy. And one more thing, that is to shave my facial hair. My first thought was, "WHAT THE HELL?!" I went to the toilet after that and realised it's only a few damn strands of fucking hair. There are so many people with facial hair so visible she doesn't even need to get close to them to see the hair, and she's picking on me. And after much consideration, I've decide to cut my hair as instructed but... still yet to decide if I should go shave, because I really think I'm gonna waste shaving cream if I'm using the manual shaver, and waste batteries if I'm gonna use the automatic one. Grrr...
Forget it, I'll think about this later. Anyway, I think I'm going to carry on doing tutorials, cause' I don't want to queue to cut my hair.
Before I end, I'm seriously appalled by the behaviour and thinking of that lady. Even though FM questions are complex and confusing sometimes, it's logical. Unlike FM, this lady(I'm kind enough not calling her 'AUNTIE') is definitely illogical, weird, and doesn't trust anyone. Anyway, I'm really confused why I even give a shit to reflect on what kinda person she is. I'm really wasting my own time. To hell with her.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Alright, today was really a great day. Lectures were great, tutorials were great. I really have nothing more to ask for. Haha. Everything was really smooth-sailing, even training. Training was really fun, and I mean really, really fun. Haha.
We started off with bowling with two-fingers, that means without the thumb, cause' Uncle Henry wants us to know how does it feel to bowl with a bent elbow and how to rotate a ball properly. So... ZX, Nigel and I bowled. Haha, we really had problems finding the pocket, cause' of the slow ball speed(we did one-step approach) and the high amount of revolutions. Haha, seriously, if we were given a rainbow-coloured ball, it would have looked like white. Haha. Anyway, that was the first time I had so much revolutions on my ball. Lol.
Next up, we had to bowl with our thumb, and try to bend our elbow just a bit so that we'll be able get more revolutions out of the ball, just like how we bowled without the thumb. Haha, this kinda training reminds me of Math questions with the "Hence..." part. Haha, you use the first part, and apply it to the second part. Haha, enough of Math, anyway, I had not much of a problem, hitting my targets and able to send the ball out. The only thing was that Uncle Henry said that I didn't bend my elbow enough, maybe cause' I'm afraid I might bend too much and control the swing. Hmmm, I should try it out maybe this weekend at Safra, or maybe Friday.
With the completion of this part, we were told to do a 3-step approach, then followed by either a 4-3 or 5-3 approach. Haha, thank god Uncle Adam changed my approach to a 4-3 some time back, and I already got used to it, so this segment didn't pose much a difficulty to me, unlike some people who really found it funny, just like how I felt initially. Haha, but seriously, changing something that you've always been doing is really hard. It's like changing a habit, and it's always gonna be tough. But, thankfully, I started bowling not long ago, so my muscle memory ain't that strong yet. So... I think I was really lucky, because I've already done a 4-3 approach many, many times and really can bowl with it, and that changing anything in my approach won't take much time because I can change the muscle memory easily. Thankfully.
Hmmm, just bowled a few more shots, and they had to shut the lanes off, which really sucks, because I was really having a great time. I've never felt so relaxed in a training, and really enjoyed myself. Hmmm, it's more of a leisure bowling session to me. Haha.
Today was really great man. Anyway, hopefully tomorrow will be just as great. Heehee. I think I'm gonna bathe soon, take my dinner, complete the Comprehension that's due tomorrow, then carry on with the revision that I've planned on my revision calendary. Then, to bed. Tee hee. Anyway, tagboard's finally working, haha. See ya guys.
You are like the shit when I'm having constipation, painful to wait for, but worth waiting for.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Ok, I'm here, because I've just eaten, and don't really have the mood to start on Vectors(iii) yet again. This will be the 1425234840583rd time I'm attempting it. No, I'm kidding. Hmmm, hopefully, I'll be able to complete at least 3 questions, haha. Cause' the first question took me almost 2 hours. Haha.
Hmmm, I think I'll start talking about last week's stuff. Firstly, Learning Festival. It was pretty alright, just that on the first day of the festival, Weber, Angus, Nelson and I had so much free time from 0845 to 1300. Haha. As usual, the usual people, the few of us, will swarm to the library because of their archmage accounts. I'm the exception, cause' I just don't feel like starting and account. Lol, so I ended up looking for materials for EoM. Anyway, because of these guys, I got to complete a book I found in the library. Haha. It has been a long time since I read a damn book, furthermore, a fiction book. Haha. It's a really great book, but I can't seem to remember the title, sorry about that. Haha, maybe I'll post it here once I get that book from Fei Juan, and before I return it.
Sorry for the digression, haha, back to learning festival. I took up Grasshopper Weaving, Stress Relieve and Relaxation, Saints Exploratorium and Asian Civilisation Museum Visit. Haha, Grasshopper Weaving was fun, maybe cause' I liked this kinda sh*t since young. Haha, especially origami. Next, to Stress Relieve and Relaxation. Haha, the teacher-in-charge for the course is my seniors civics tutor, haha, and he's a bloody cock. Haha, I won't elaborate, but he is really funny, and during the course and was half asleep. Really relaxed. Hmmm, and that ended the first day of Learning Festival.
The second day was much packed for the four of us. After the skit, we only had 45 minutes before the Saints Exploratorium started. So, as usual we went to the library. Haha. Anyway, Saints Exploratorium was all about Physics. Organised by Mr Fong, our favourite Physics teacher, haha. Anyway, during the course, we made Play"dough", really out of dough, food colouring, alum, corn oil, water, salt and heat. Haha, it was really fun. We tried to make many things. I tried to make a squirrel, since people say I look like a squirrel, but it failed, cause' the dough was too soft, and the tail just couldn't stand; I made bowling ball and pin too. Angus made a dick, and even showed Mr Fong, lol. Haha, Mr Fong took a while to realise what it was. Haha, then we made a lava lamp, which is just something to do with the different densities of liquids. Really fun. Sadly, ours failed, cause' we didn't put sufficient amount of ink. However, Dion's lamp was nicely-made. Last, but not least, we had a rocket making competition. The energy source we used was Vitamin-C, using the gas produced when it's put into water. Anyway, that part was quite okay, even though my group's rocket didn't win, haha. I put one half of the vitamin-C in my mouth and it was quite ticklish at first, haha, cause' of the fizzling and gas produced. My mouth was really sticky, haha. But, that's something I've never tried before, great experience if you ever want to be a retard. Lol.
Not long after that was the ACM visit. Actually, nothing much there. Just got to know some history behind Jesus, and enjoyed the company of Weber, Angus and Nelson. All of our "powers of lamers" merge will be a great force of shit. Haha.
Hmmm, overall, the Learning Festival was pretty enjoyable. I'd love to experience it again next year.
Okay, next... I think I'll talk about bowling again. So, anyway, I went bowling on Friday, cause' I was dismissed at 1215. Bowled with Anuaar. Not bad. Compared to the last time I bowled. I could hit my targets very nicely and have the 4-3 timing in-place. Not bad, really not bad. Maybe I should just bowl more often. Hopefully there's training on Wednesday and I won't lose my form.
The next day was the CT funfair, and the Combined Schools selection at Safra Mount Faber. I wanted to drop by Safra to watch, but I was held up by Vectors(iii) tutorial. Lol, because of the question 1. I couldn't solve it and wasn't ready to give it up. I don't like the feeling of skipping questions and not being able to solve questions, so I just carried on doing, till I managed to get some answers for all the parts of the question. After completing question 1, I showered, and set off for CTSS to meet Shi Qi to get my ticket. I went there alone, cause' Gary and Pravin didn't reply me on phone. And I cannot stay at home, cause' I've already given my word to Shi Qi that I'll buy tickets from him. So... I went down to CTSS. When I reached there, Anti-Koh gang was leaving, and also Timothy's gang, so... no choice, gotta wait for Shi Qi and loiter around. Thankfully, I didn't wait long for Shi Qi, and saw Steve! We went to the scouts' stall. The scouts made French Toast and Milo. The French toast really looks nice, even though it's really oily. I gave it a pass and bought Milo instead. To my horror, the milo tasted EXTREMELY sweet even though it looks blend. I could only taste sugar. Haha, should have expected that. I just finished it, and went to walk around. I then saw Janet and her gang, and since I don't see any familiar faces, I just stuck with them. I left at around 1445, cause' I really found it boring. At first we wanted to stay to see Cai Chun Jia and Derrick Ho, but didn't. Went to MacDonalds after that, sat there like a block, planned what I was going to do at home, and after around half an hour I left.
Nothing much actually, just saw my teachers. Didn't see many of my friends. I think I really wasted my time, crappy phuck. Shouldn't have promised ShiQi... Sigh, anyway, what's done is done. "God has it all planned for you," Christians say, haha, maybe he just wants me to see the teachers and not friends. Maybe I'll get to see them some time later this year.
Hmmm, just slacked the time away until around 1815 hours. Went for a 35 minutes run downstairs. Took a bath then had my dinner and started on my homework. Nothing much during the night actually.
I think I'm going off, to do my Vectors(iii), haha.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Hoho, woke up at 0625, quite close to my normal waking-up time. Haha, I could woke up so early, cause' last night I slept at around 0945. Not sure why, but I was really tired. Anyway, I wanted to update after I got all my results for all my subjects, but just couldn't find the time and mood. Haha.
Alright, I think I did pretty alright, except for F Math, cause' I could have done better if I copied THAT question correctly. Feck. Anyway, here goes:
Math: B
F Math: C, feck, if I copied the questions correctly, I would have differentiated it correctly, and would have gotten a B. Feck.
Chem: B
Physics: D, lol, I was surprised I passed, but then, well, I found the paper pretty hard, so that's why. Anyway, I could have gotten C, but really lazy to go argue and fight for that 1 mark, so I just settled for D.
GP: I got a C6. Haha, I'm never good with writing, so... that's why I failed my composition.
Well, overall had 52 points, third in my class! Haha, but, I think I shouldn't be too happy, cause' my class seems to be the last among the F Math classes. But well, I think this is a really good motivation for me to work hard. Frankly speaking, I'm quite happy with my results. Heehee...
Even though it's been a long time since I updated, there's nothing much to update actually, except that I screwed the first Chem SPA up, absolutely phucked up. Phuck! And on the same day, during training, the ball hit my ankle twice, -.- crappy shit. I guess it's because my shoulder was just too tired, so I kept dropping it, and WHAM! right into my ankle. I'm not gonna elaborate all the bad stuff, cause' it really agitates me when I think about them.
Anyway, hopefully this weekend will be good. Maybe going bowling again later, haha, that's if I can complete my Physics tutorial. Oh, speaking of tutorials, that damn Nelson has yet to return me my FMB notes, and Vectors notes, which means I won't be able to do the tutorial. What an as*hole. Hmmm, hopefully he's going to his grandmother's house today, or tomorrow, so I can get it from him, since his grandmother's house is just a stone throw away from my house.
Hmmm, I think I'm going off, so... goodbye.
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Alright, it has been ages since I posted any shit, because I'm just too lazy and also the preparation for the Common Test really held me down. Anyway, I think I did pretty alright for Common Test SO FAR. Haha, I got a B for Math and a B for Chemistry. To add on, I got 68% for both papers, haha. What's left are F Math and Physics. Physics was really tough, so... I'm only aiming for C, D or E. F Math was actually quite alright. I think a C should not be a problem, hopefully. Haha.
Actually, there's nothing much to update. Hmmm, I went to bowl last week, and averaged 180. Not bad I've to say, haha, since I didn't bowl for 2 weeks before that. I'm really looking forward to training man.
Hmmm, I think I'm going to try to complete my Vectors tutorial, and solve those questions I can't solve for Integration(II). Shall update after I get back the rest of my papers.
Friday, June 24, 2005
Hoho, time is precious; precious, is time. Two days before school reopens, and I'm going to have my GP paper on Monday. Followed by Chemistry on Tuesday, and Math on Wednesday, not forgetting F Math on Thursday and finally Physics on Friday. Thankfully it's only five days. I'm not sure if I'll be able to ace any of the papers, but hopefully I'll be able to ace Math and pass the rest. Though I've studied quite a bit, but not sure why, my confidence's just not 100%. Hmmm, I think I shouldn't worry too much, try my best and take this chance to learn from my mistakes.
Talking about the start of school again, I'm wondering when will be the next training. I'm looking forward to trainings man. Hmmm, anyway, it has been a long time since I bowled. The last time was the Ownage Bowl last Friday. I feel like bowling man.
I actually planned to go bowling tomorrow, but after knowing that my past year common test papers for Chemistry were not to be found, the mood's just not there. I think I'll just complete the F Math common test 2004 and slack till school reopens. Lol. Alright, maybe not slack all the way, but read up the important points once or twice again.
Haha, I think I'm off, I'll try to complete F Math common test 2004. Haha. Hehe. Hoho. Huhu. Hihi. Bye.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Oh... I don't think I'm going to mug today, arh!!! The worst thing that happened is that the usual computer I use shuts down by itself!!! Freak man, and now I'm using my brother's computer, since he's in camp. I went to Safe Mode and scanned for virus as suggested by a forumite from Chit Chat, but no virus found. I did a System Restore also, but to no avail. I'm really lost, but only left with reformatting. Damn man.
Anyway, had funbowl at Jurong Superbowl today. Haha, the number of bowlers was too little and only the top seven bowlers were rewarded, together with High Game awards and last of all the Most Supportive bowler. Out of so many prizes, I won none even though I came in 9th! ARH! The Most Supportive bowler award went to the last bowler, but apparently he left too early, and hence the second last bowler got it. AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET ANYTHING! ARH! Crap. Well, actually I have no one to blame, except to blame myself for not picking up El-Nino as the first ball. I used SlayR and had a 127 first game. I took out El-Nino and got a 235. I didn't have many solid pocket strikes, but because of the entry angle of El-Nino, I had strikes from light pockets and cross pockets, even right into the nose! The carry was excellent. Had one 148, cause I missed some spares, but the rest were 160, 170 and 180 games, which helped to pull my average up, and covered a lil' of the 127 game. However, still not enough to get into the top 7, sigh. I missed high game award by 1 pin, because one guy got a 236 in the same game I got 235. Nigel got a high game award of 173 cause' people who got higher games won before, and unfortunately I got a 171. Sigh, won nothing...
Looking on the bright side, at least I corrected some of my problems and the last four games were one of the most consistent set of four games I ever had. Hopefully I can remember the "feeling" and bowl with this consistency from now on.
Feeling both upset and happy, I together with MB and WZ went to eat McDonalds. Haha, talked cock, and went back to play pool after that. Haha, I played with LJ, and WZ and Jensen went to bowl, while CH watched, both the pool table and the lanes. Well, seeing WZ and Jensen having so much fun bowling, LJ and I decided to join them. Haha. I bowled like Jason Belmonte, no thumb! Haha, but the first game I had an amazing high score of 19 pinfalls! I could not control the hook, haha. But the second game was better. The third game was better cause' I decided to play straight. Haha, but, I wasn't really accurate, but still managed to pick up a few spares and got a couple or strikes. It was pretty fun and reflected on my accuracy. I really think I need to practice more. Hehe.
Hmmm, I think that's about all that's worth mentioning, and worth remembering. Haha, I think I'll do a few Math questions before going to sleep.
Anyway, not long ago, Aaron told me I'll have the shock of my life when I see the standard of the Common Test. Haha, hopefully it won't be the same as last year's and the shock I get will be due to how manageable the questions are. :x Haha. So, I shall stop here. Take care everyone.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Haha, didn't go bowling at all. I'm just too lazy to travel... haha, as usual. So... yesterday was just a slacking day, slacked the whole day away. Hmmm, after much deliberation, I have decided to mug this weekend, because firstly, during the weekends, each bowling game costs $3, which is really daylight robbery; secondly, it's peer pressure man. Everyone's mugging, except me. Haha, so, well. Actions speak louder than words, and I've done practices on Partial Fractions since it's one of the easiest and there are only 15 questions in the Ten Year Series. Well, it was a breeze, frankly speaking. Haha, I'm seriously not boasting, but after recalling what are the procedures and how to go about the questions, everything went smoothly.
After completing the Partial Fraction questions, I went to the content page, and finally decided to practice on Inequalities. Haha, cause' it's one of the manageable topics as well. Hopefully, I'll be able to complete at least 5 to 6 topics by the end of Sunday. Thereafter, I'll go bowl. I've to prepare for the up and coming OWNAGE BOWL. Haha! That's what MB calls it. Hopefully, I'll be able to be in the top 10 and win some money back home. Can't wait for OWNAGE BOWL!
To tell you frankly, I would have totally forgotten about the OWNAGE BOWL if not for my calendar. Not only did it remind me of the OWNAGE BOWL, it also reminded me that the second week is coming to an end, and I'd better start mugging before my ass gets owned. Haha, knowing that the holidays are coming to an end, unfortunately, it reminded me of the damn NAPFA test! F**K, it has been such a long time since I ran, and I've been procrastinating since the start of the holidays. Crap, I think I'll really have to have something to motivate me. Hmmm, I think it's only the running, sit-and-reach and the standing broad jump that are hindering me from getting gold. Pull-ups - no kick! 10 is not a problem. :p Haha, sit ups too, are not a problem. Shutter run is a lil' difficult, but I'm only aiming for a C grade, so well... I'll leave it. Haha. I hate to say this, but, I think I really have to start running. Tsk.
Well, I think I'll stop here. I'm going off to play games, haha.
Hugging you gives me the feeling of owning the whole damn world - cause' you are my world.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Sian, I haven't done anything today. Wanted to complete the chapter on Newton Raphson and stuff today, but I think quite impossible. Hmmm, maybe I'll just aim to complete half of it. Then complete it tomorrow before going bowling if I've decided to bowl.
Anyway, I just added a background picture. I found this picture quite meaningful. Not only is it meaningful to me, it's black and white! Haha, I like the combination of white, black and red... so, well, I just added in and changed my font colour.
So, anyway, I think I'll go play a lil' while more before proceeding to complete tutorial.
Since it all ended,
He sank into emptiness and
Ended up stranded.
Reluctant and skeptical yet
Made it through the sadness and
Incidentally opened up a familiar yet
New chapter... of singlehood.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Haha, South Zone sucks, but well, at least I still had a lil' fun. Haha. Anyway, I'm going to start mugging. Hmm, maybe I'll bowl after I finish mugging Physics or Chem, then I can focus more on bowling and not always worry about the upcoming Common Test. Haha.
Oh yeah, hafta wish shermin happy birthday. Hope she had fun on her birthday. Haha.
People, happy mugging! I'm off.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Hey hey, just got home after meeting up with my PW group. Haha, nothing much actually, except when I'm on my way home. A girl whom I think is from Ngee Ann Poly asked me if I could lend her my phone to call her own phone cause' she can't find it. Haha. Cool, first time I encounter such thing. Anyway, I think I'm going bowling later, so updating later.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
It's Wednesday, 1st of June, today. It's the 5th day of the long-awaited June holidays, and I've not touched on anything related to school, but, I seriously feel like starting on the GPP draft and also complete Power Series and chapter 12 before diving into piles and pile of notes to prepare for the dreaded common test. Well, hopefully it'll be today. I'm planning to complete the GPP and send it to Weber today, then tomorrow I'll do nothing because I'm hoping to go bowling with my dad. :)
So anyway, there actually isn't much to update about, but because I'm home alone and I just feel like typing. Haha, I know it may sound retarded, but, truthfully, "I need not pretend or sound like a retard, because I AM retarded." Haha, my sister always tells me what's in the inverted commas.
Talking about my sister, I can't seem to find my sister's skipping ropes. And, the sad part of this search is that my sister had gone to chalet and will only be back tomorrow. Crappy shit. Hmmm, I think I shall just dig whereever there's a pile of her stuff. Hopefully I'll be able to find it.
Oh, I just remembered, I told myself to update about my dream, but then I just recalled what Miss Chia told the Saints, "You're posting on the World Wide Web, and you're calling it personal when everyone can read it..., " so, I'll just comment on the dream, haha. Well, as I said it's a dream, I hope it'll happen, but too bad... I doubt so...
Anyway, I've to register for NS before the deadline, 08/06. Hopefully I'll remember. Hmmm, I think I'm going off to search for that damn skipping rope, I'll be back...
The dream was so real, I could actually feel you...
Monday, May 30, 2005
Hmmm, I'm troubled whether to bowl today or not... Crap.
Well, I was troubled in the morning, but after watching some videos from the PBA, I decided to go bowl with the motivation of having high scores, haha. So, I had my lunch, took a bath and set off to Safra.
I didn't expect Safra to be so crowded, but thankfully, not as crowded as it seems, cause' I still can bowl on a pair of lanes alone. So, anyway, I just stretched, prepared everything, tested the approach to see if I could slide and stuff like that. Then I just bowled. Hmmm, not so bad overall, cause' I could hit my target most of the time, except the times when I looked down again. Usually if I miss my target, I'll miss it about 3-5 boards... sad, because this big error always bring my ball to the gutter. Hmmm, but at least I corrected quite a bit of the mistake of looking down and not following through towards the target. So... the next time I go bowl, I've to make sure I still look up and follow through all the way, then try to release the ball a lil' earlier because I'm kinda lofting the ball. So... hopefully I can correct these two by the time South Zone comes. Hmmm, these are the two major ones. The other 1 I've to correct is to keep my trail leg down.
So... not a bad day afterall, didn't really remember the scores, but the scores were around 160 - 170, with a couple of games 180+. Not forgetting a few games of 130 - 150. But, well, no matter how badly I bowl, I'm still lucky tuckie, and nothing's gonna change that. Haha, Uncle Henry always says that.
I hope I'll be able to bowl on Thursday when my father's having his off day. Then I'll correct more of the mistakes.
I'll update soon. Hopefully I didn't defame anyone in this post, or else I might just get sued.
Friday, May 27, 2005
Alamak, I think I shouldn't have stopped bowling for such a long time. Crappy. I'm doing all the things I changed in the past. Releasing the damn ball late. Dropping shoulder. Following through everywhere except my target. Looking down AGAIN. It's damn frustrating when I was bowling. I couldn't even find the damn 1-3 pocket because my ball goes EVERYWHERE. It's really... what else can I say but the word that starts with "F", end with "K", with second letter "U" and the third "C". I think I'll really need a lot more practice and help. Maybe I'll ask Uncle Henry to help me during the holidays. Freaking shit man. Everything went haywire just because I needed more time to catch up because of the "A" Divs. I know it's not the "A" Divs or anyone's fault... but, well... what else can I say? Really very frustrating. Sighz... Uncle Henry changed my timing and stuff, so I'll really have to get used to it and practice more. Really bad day today, a really bad day to start the holidays.
GRRRRRR....
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Sorry about the late update.
SAJC Bowling Team 2005:
Singles Boys - Gold
Double Boys - Gold
Double Girls - Bronze
Quartet Boys - Bronze
Overall school (boys) - Gold!
Overall school (Girls) - Silver!
Masters Boys - Gold (Anuaar) and Bronze (David)
So, anyway, haha, standard man.
Hmmm, well, actually, I just came back from Michelle's house. Supposed to be sleeping, but not sure why, I can't seem to sleep.
So, anyway, met up with MB at AMK at 6 supposedly, as suggested by nigel, to go have our dinner and also to get Michelle's present. However, everyone came late, and we just waited for the rest of those going with us, who agreed to meet at 7. Actually, I was on the dot, and LJ came about 25 minutes later, then came Nigel, followed by Jensen and then ZX, who came at 7. Hmmm, I should have left the house later so I need not wait so long. But, well, if everyone thinks that way, then... GG; next time we'll have to set the meeting time 2 hours before. So anyway...
Adam, Iris, Nic, and MB took cabs to Michelle's place. Actually, I didn't do much except eat, watch movies and also the videos recorded during the A Divisions by Nic, play carrom and play bridge. Hmmm, but the company of friends was great. Hmmm, I watched videos, movies, played carrom and play bridge till around 3 I think, can't really remember. Then someone suggested going out for a walk, so I went together with CH, Clara, Calista, Michelle, LJ and Jensen. Haha, we went to the playground and LJ drew many things, like shit, really shit, as in really he drew a shit. Haha. Anyway, many were already asleep then - people like ZX, Nigel, Alex, Adam. After hanging around the playground, we went back to the house and played bridge again. Haha, LJ, Jensen, Clara and I played bridge. Had a great time playing "No Trump". Haha, owning! So, anyway, shall not go into the details. Hmmm, after that, LJ, Jensen and I went into the mahjong room where Nic, Amelia, Anuaar and Vic were playing mahjong. LJ, Jensen used the computers while I caught some sleep. Hmmm, subsequent events are just blurry images now. Haha. Except breakfast this morning, bridge again and carrom again, and finally went home after dilly-dally-ing.
Actually... now I realised I don't really know the sequence of events, haha, so anyway, I just hope I wrote them down QUITE accurately. Haha. So anyway, I think I'll stop here. Hmmm, hope I didn't accidentally defame anyone, or I might just get sued. Shit, I'm talking cock, and ermmm, so... I'll be off. Haha, I should be updating quite often soon since holidays are around the corner.
MB rocks... nuff' said.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
So, anyway it's yet another beautiful Saturday with rain in the morning. I woke up at 0700 hours, ate breakfast, and slacked. I slacked till now - which is bad. Haha, I wanted to do tutorials since I'll be out the whole afternoon. I'm going to Alicia's house. :D
So, anyway, many things happened. Our school's soccer team lost to NJ and was eliminated. Well, I have to say, we should have advanced. The referee did not see many things. Really. I'm not going to say anything or else I might be sued for defaming NJ. Well, hopefully they'll take it easy. When I saw Kenneth crying the whole day... I felt the ache...
Well, things were better yesterday during the A Div bowling competitions. Anuaar had a 4 game series of 903. Haha, great series man. Anyway, inevitably, there are people who did well, and did not do as well. I hope they'll be able to persevere on. Anyway, I have to say, some of them are kinda unlucky I have to say. For example, LJ, his ball couldn't carry. With many perfect pockets, only a few carried. Hopefully things will turn for the better on Tuesday. The best would be, of course, SA winning the team gold, which is also the most important.
After the games, we went to eat at Suntec, though not all came with us. Went to KFC. Quite a long while since I ate KFC. Anyway, ate, talked cock, and after that went to Subway to look for those who went Subway. After that we went home, while, YQ, David, Steph and Jan went to Starbucks. Hmmm, halfway to the station, Adam realised he left his keys in his bowling bag. So... as good friends and good teammates, Nic, CH, Iris, and I accompanied him back to Marina to wait for him, while he took a cab to where his balls are. By that time, I was worn out already man. Not long after, he came back and we went home.
Hmmm, that's about what I have to say, I think I'll do at least a few questions before going to Alicia's house, so that I can enjoy the food her mother is going cook and myself till the max and not worry about tutorials. Hehe.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Hmmm, I'm going to start doing my tutorials after updating.
So anyway, had training again today. Wasn't focusing really well, and my shoulders were dropping maybe cause' of fatigue or maybe not warmed up really well. Missed quite a number of spares when having some "buddy bowling". Well, but after a few more games, I could hit my target most of the times. Nigel, LJ, Ben and I played a last game individually at the end, and thankfully, I got a 181. Not bad. Hit most of my spares during this game.
Anyway, Shuo Yi by Sylvester Sim is not bad. Nice lyrics, nice music. Too bad I can't find the chinese lyrics on the net, only the han yu pin yin. Shall share with you when I find them.
Hmmm, actually, nothing much happened today. I think I'll just start my tutorials.
Friday, May 06, 2005
Oh man, I'm damn tired. I think I'll just try to complete a few questions of Functions before going to sleep.
Anyway, training was great. 181, 179, 170 and 188. I think it's quite consistent, haha, I hit the average Uncle Henry gave me, which is 175. Yeah baby! Gan! Haha. Anyway bowled two games after that. First game was pretty bad, cause' my thumb was really perspiring like mad, and I couldn't get a good grip of the thumb hole. So... couldn't get the feeling, rev, and ball speed I had. Luckily, the second game was better. I had a 194. Yay! Haha. After the two games, we were tired, and not mentioning there's training tomorrow. I'm not sure if I can get my strength back tomorrow. My right shoulder is kinda aching, elbow is giving me some kinda "shocks" if I exerted too much pressure on it. Lastly, my thumb has blisters already. Sian, due to quite a few late releases and thumb getting caught. Thereafter, LJ, CH and JL ate at Victors, so I stayed with them, since it's Friday today. Called my mom to tell her to keep some food for me, then went on to sip on my Snapple, pink lemonade, then talk cock with LJ, CH and JL. Anyway, the pink lemonade wasn't that bad. Firstly, it's pink and the lemon taste was good. Haha, sorry digress. Anyway, we were talking about various stuff, crap, rubbish and nonsense. Haha.
After eating, LJ, CH and JL went to take forms for Bowler of the Month and Youth Challenge. I didn't take cause' I think it's too expensive to be bowling in these events. Proceeded to the bus stop and headed home.
Hmmm, today was quite good. Anyway, got to message her a few times. Though it's just a few times, glad that she's getting along fine and especially happy that she's happy. Haha.
I'm Tuck Foong and nothing's gonna change that. :D
"All the best" is what I have to say for knowing that you're happy will make my day.
Monday, May 02, 2005
Yeah baby, I cleared FMA, FMB and Physics. Haha. I feel quite accomplished. However, there's still more to come. Well, during the first three months, Weber and I were always ahead of everyone, sometimes even ahead of the lectures. But now, we're behind the lecture. We only complete the tutorials after the lectures finished. During the first three months, we finished the tutorial as soon as the lecture ended. Haha, a lil' hardcore, but I kinda like that, because I won't feel pressured by the quick pace of Miss Tan. Anyway, up till now, I'm still coping pretty well. Hopefully, I'll be able to maintain like this throughout, or better be faster!
Hmmm, I really feel like bowling. Actually wanted to go bowling yesterday, but I couldn't complete what I aimed for on Saturday, so had to carry forward to Sunday. I really really have the urge to bowl man. BUT, to make things worse, I may not have training on Wednesday because of some Civil Defense talk. My senior said that the talk is to teach girls how to handle emergencies, and teach boys how to rescue the girls. Haha, corny, but I like it, but too bad the girl I wanna rescue won't be there for me to rescue.
So anyway, I hope Miss Wong will talk to the teacher-in-charge of organising the talk to allow the bowlers to attend training. Really hope man. I really don't wanna get all my bad habits from the past back. I need to keep my trail leg down, don't drop my right shoulder and follow through towards my target. The most recent training was quite bad. My shoulder kept dropping, which made me miss my target to the right, and ended up with many splits, like 1-2-4-10, 1-2-10, 1-2-5-10. It's really frustrating. But, luckily I could still pick up most of my spares to reach 150. Very bad man. I need to keep my trail leg down to prevent my shoulders from dropping. So, I think I'll work on my trail leg the next training.
Hmmm, before I forget, haha, I went to my Aunt's house yesterday, and played mahjong. Quite some time since I played mahjong. Not bad, won quite a lil' bit, but lost a lil' in total in the end. Wanted to have red wine, but I didn't cause' I wanted to do tutorial at night, but ended up watching television... -.- should have drank red wine instead. With red wine, I could have slept better, and longer. Haha, could have dreamt of Her longer. Haha...
Ok ok, so anyway, there'll be a Math test tomorrow, on Small Angle and Approximations, 3D Trigo and Polynomial equations. It's FMB, so, got quite a lot of study, since I'm still not really familiar with the factor formula, and stuff. Going to study for it soon. Alright, other than Math test, tomorrow is quite a good day. There's PE tomorrow! Yay! Haha, love PE. Then I have 2 hours of break, thanks to Mother Tongue lessons. Thereafter, it'll be FMA lecture, GP, FMB then Physics. Not bad actually, cause' there aren't many tutorials. :D
Hmmm, I think I'm going to go off, not to study YET, but to slack a lil' more. Heehee...
I just wanna hold your hand, and hope it'll never end...
I'll keep faith till the end,
and never give up even if someone offers me a few thousand grands...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Alright, I just arrived home from training. One of the best training. Haha, I think I can bowl well at Victors. Previously, I had a 184.5 average, and today, I had 174 which I think is quite good. First 2 games were great, maybe because I could focus very well, but the last two games, I started losing focus and couldn't really hit my target very consistently. I had 177, 200, 169, 150. Hmmm, a lil' inconsistent, but, oh well, I did my best and I'm happy! Haha.
Ok, this week has been really hectic. Thankfully I finished PI last week, and only left with the removing of excess words, because I have 801 words, in total. Hmmm, really have to cut down. Tutorials were really crashing down on me. I used my WHOLE Sunday to complete my tutorials because I have FMA, FMB, and Physics tutorial on Monday. Hmmm, I guess I'm kinda lagging behind, so, I gotta make good use of the coming Labour Day to catch up. Hopefully, I can do it. Hopefully I can have the wisdom and perseverence.
I'll stop here, busy night ahead. Shall update soon. Take care people.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Hi, if you're wondering why the hell am I here, it's because my headache is not that bad now, maybe because I had a great sleep.
So, anyway, I had a dream, haha, nice dream. I dreamt that I was with her, and we were really close, and I even shared a dirty joke with her that I recently got to know of. Haha. Spectacular. Hmmm, wishful thinking, I know, haha, but it's a dream and it's where things that are impossible become possible. Anyway, I really hope it'll be a dejavu, someday, somehow.
So anyway, Hamster sent me a few songs from F.I.R from their second album, and one of the songs is Qian Nian Zhi Lian. Hmmm, nice song, nice title, nice voice, nice lyrics, I like.
Unfortunately, with this nice song, I still have to do tutorials. Sadly, I'm stuck at MI, which is partly an FM topic, BUT, I'm not going give up man. Another tutorial from a pure FM topic is Polynomial Equations from FMB. Even though it seems like it's one of the easiest topic of FM, I got stuck, because I just can't seem to find the relation between X and Y. Grrr... SO, due to minor 'stucks', I've decided to do my Physics tutorial instead, after updating.
Hmmm, I should have woken up earlier, so I can complete as much homework as I can, cause' I have training at 1 at Victors, so may not have time and energy to do tutorials at night. Anyway, I'm kinda excited and really feel the pressure because I heard that it's gonna be sort of a tournament between ACJC or something. Hmmm, I'm not prepared you see. Hmmm, but I'll give me best, and enjoy the games and company of my fellow team mates. Hope the lanes aren't so difficult to play, and the people from AC playing on my pair of lanes aren't so good, so that I won't be pressured to my limits. Haha, and some people still thought bowling is an easy game. You're wrong! Seriously, it's really stressful and highly pressurising especially if you have to make an easy spare in order to win. I hope everything's gonna go right man.
I think I'll end here, hope my headache goes away COMPLETELY.
I really miss the times we've had,
both the joy and pain we've shared.
Unlikely you'll be back,
but I'll be like haystack,
waiting for the gorgeous stallion.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
The headache is really bad, I swear I'll kill myself if this carries on for another week.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Grrr, damn, I feel kinda sick man, the medicine the doctor prescribed didn't work, crap shit. I've got headache, but only on my leftside. My mom brought me to the doctor and I got antibiotics. Hopefully I'll be able to recover soon. So... everything went pretty alright, until I after lunch when I took medicine. I forgot the medicine only taken twice a day, once in the morning and another at night, to suit my schedule during the school days, cause' I have only half an hour breaks on certain days, so I may not have time to eat and take my medicine. Hopefully taking the medicine within such short intervals won't have any side effects.
Ok, after reading the newspapers yesterday, I just realised Jeremy Fang had 2636 pinfalls, and kinda leading the pack. I was quite shocked, though I know he's a good bowler, but didn't know he's so good. BUT, I think he shouldn't drill people's balls with a stretched span even though he likes the feeling. So, anyway, I'm looking forward to the next time the results are posted.
This is a short post, since I don't have the mood to do anything. Hopefully I can do some tonight.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
I'm back~! Once again. Just reached home after playing pool after eating after training.
So, anyway, training was pretty good. Uncle Henry splitted us into teams and we had a roll-off. Hmmm, I'm really glad Uncle Henry put me with Eu Dee, Nic and Jensen. Haha, it was pretty fun bowling with them. And so, we had 5 minutes of practise throws and it was on to the games. I started out with El-Nino Fatal, but, it's not reaching the pocket, which caused me to have a very bad second game of 114, cause' I'm not hitting the pin-10 and end up having several splits and difficult spares - so Uncle Henry told me to move inside. I changed my line from 10 - 7, to 15-12, and used SlayR. Voila, I found my line. The games after that were pretty alright, and I'm satisfied with them.
In the end I had a 185, 114, 169, 169, 160 which means I have an average of 159.4. Just 3 pins more! Damn! Anyway, it's over, and I should focus on the mistakes I made. Anyway, if not for the 114, let's say I have a 160, I would have a 168.6! Never mind, I shall learn from my mistakes. Anyway, I should not be focusing on my score, but the process. I really made a big mistake by being stubborn and continued using the El-Nino Fatal with the same line, I should have moved inside. Overall I'm pretty satisfied, cause' I hit most of my spares, except the spares in my second game. Due to the several splits, I was kinda panicking and end up being distracted instead of focusing of taking down the spare. I think I'd better build up my mental game.
Hmmm, it seems like Uncle Henry was not satisfied because of the 114. Hopefully, I'll still be able to bowl with Jensen, Nic and Eu Dee. I pray!
Anyway, I think I really lack confidence in myself, though Uncle Henry always told us to have confidence in ourselves and most importanly - be happy. I have to admit I can't help but to doubt myself sometimes, because of people who are really good in their games. However, I shall be a lil' more optimistic and positive. I must tell myself to be confident and convince myself that I can do it. I can do it! I can do it!
Haha, so anyway, I'm going off now, slack just a while and start my tutorials so I can spend a lil' time on my Preliminary Ideas for Project Work. Then, hopefully I can go bowling with Jensen on Monday since we end pretty early. Then I'll work on my follow-through and trail leg problem. Okay, shall update maybe next weekend. Oh yah, there'll be a few matches next week. Hope SA's soccer team beat AC and IJ! And also the basketball team! Up and on!
My torch is still burning brightly,
Your presence still lingers,
How I wish I can hold you tightly,
And never to let go of my fingers.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Alright, finally, I'm going to update with something not about bowling, and nothing about the life of a Saint(me).
And so, it was a usual morning, I woke up at 0550, washed up and left house for school. Nothing special happened, but as I was on the bus, I remembered the conversation with Wennee and reminisced about my youthful and passionate days with someone so dear, that letting go was like asking me to stop bowling. Anyway, I learnt to let go, and also learnt to live with less of her, but that took me more than 1 year.
Alright, side track, I don't remember how Wennee and I talked about her, but Wennee then wanted a photograph of her, so, I sent it to her. And after that, we were talking crap, when Wennee asked me why didn't I try again. This question she asked, sparked me to think on the bus this morning...
Well, I don't really know why didn't I try again. Firstly, it's not like Math, which allows me to try and try till I get the answer. And, secondly, I think I lack the courage and the self-esteem, cause' I've always thought I'm not worthy of her, and ended up being possessive. However, I've learnt a lesson, and like I always say, "It's alright to fail, as long as you learn from your mistake."
Anyway, if I ever try again, it won't be really beneficial because at that time, 'O'Levels were so near I could feel it, enough said. And if you ask why didn't I try after that? I can only say, I didn't have the courage, once again. Anyway, even if, a very big if, I succeed, JC life will be too hectic, and since I'm not academically inclined, I won't have enough time for tutorials, BOWLING, friends, PW(for first year) and more. So, I think, the lack of courage kinda' saved me from the trouble of picking pieces of my heart.
I'm really envious of people like Aaron Wee, my fellow senior from SAJC and pal from XsT, because he met a girl in secondary 2 if I'm not wrong, and they ARE still together right now, which is like 5 to 6 years? Anyway, Aaron, if you're reading this, I wish you all the best, and remember to invite the XsTs to your wedding dinner. :D
I managed to remember what I wanted to say from morning till now, haha, my memory is good eh? Anyway, I've to thank Wennee cause' without her, I won't be able to think of a topic not related directly to bowling and the life of a Saint; but thanks to her, I've lost some of my brain cells which could be used for the FM lectures this morning.
I would like to sign off with an important question I posted to myself in the bus, "When will the torch I'm carrying burn out?"
Tuckie Wuckie Duckie signing out. (Nigel always calls me that, haha. )
Saturday, April 09, 2005
First things first, I'm down with a flu and to make things worse, a sore throat came along; together, the flu and sore throat form a powerful force of discomfort, and swallowing is really uncomfortable, irritating, uncomfortable, and ermmm, did I mention uncomfortable?
Alright, thankfully, training was good, other than the viruses causing a little discomfort. Hmmm, the conditions were great, light - medium oil, oiled to quite some length, probably 43 feet? Not really sure. But, it was not very bad, cause' I could find the pocket within the first 5 throws. :D Anyway, after the practise throws, Uncle Henry set different spare shots for us, and he set up a 4-7 spare shot on my pair of lanes. Guess what? I missed nothing, which means I hit everything. Haha, great satisfaction and also the accomplishment. After that, we moved to the pair of lanes to the right, with 6-10 spare shot. Pretty alright, I hit everything except 2 shots, I think, one was a 'chop' leaving pin-6 and the other was way off, probably 3 or 4 boards right, which means my ball ended up in the gutter. I think it ain't that bad. Hehe.
Alright, the next one was difficult, cause' we were supposed to hit a perfect pocket. The spare shot was 1-3-5-7 for the right-handers and 1-2-5-10 for the left-handers. I only got 1 perfect pocket, and a few cross pockets, others were really off. Hmmm, not good... but, I'll work hard, definitely. Next were buckets, 2-4-5-8. Hmmm, could convert it pretty often, ain't that bad. Hmmm, after that, time was up. Uncle Henry talked to us and we were dismissed.
After that had lunch, and played a few games with the MB gang, except ZX. Hmmm, wasn't very good, cause' I couldn't find the pocket, the lanes were quite toasted. Imagine, I played 20 - 15, and end up having a 1-2 pocket strike. The middle part of the lane which is supposed to be oilier, were really dry. After the first game, I decided to tame it down a little by opening up my pinky, which helped quite a bit. Thankfully.
We played till around 1500 hours, then I proceeded to collect my spare ball from Uncle Walter, since everyone wanted to stop already. Went home after that.
Great day man, couldn't ask for more. Hope everyone have a great week ahead!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Shit, training was pretty bad. I can't seem to hit my target. Sigh... don't want to talk about it anymore.
Anyway, I'm quite excited about Monday cause' I'll be wearing the nicely designed SA uniform. Hope Monday will be a great day.
Short post. Nothing much happened.
Friday, April 01, 2005
Alright, actually wanted to update sometime ago, but, was really too lazy. Lol.
Anyway, today, 1st of April, is April's Fools' Day, and definitely someone would play a prank on me, since I'm such an ever-trusting kid. Now, I'm going to tell you how I got tricked.
Early in the morning, at approximately 0608 hours, I received an SMS from my senior whom I shall not name. The SMS says, "Yo, can call me house room phone now at 62952944? My HP batt low. It's important.... about 'someone' the incident... I just decided to pon school today..." Alright, that's the end of the message. I was pretty shocked, and quickly jumped out of bed and dialled the number with my phone registered with a private number and to my surprise, no one picked it up. I smelled something fishy, and decided to use the phone which is not registered as private. A lady picked it up... "This is the STD control centre... for English press 1..." I was stunned. I felt like laughing, but my parents were sleeping, so, I kept quiet. Haha, this was a really great prank. I really have to admit. Haha.
Anyway, today was pretty alright. Had 2 hours of Physics revision lecture and trigo revision lecture. It was really refreshing. Luckily there are revision lectures man, if not, I'd probably die in the midst of all the new stuff I'm going to face. Thank god!
Alright, tomorrow is training, at Marina Superbowl. I really hope it's gonna be great. I hope it'll be as good as Wednesday or even better. I hit a 213 in the first game after all the drills, but it was a pity I couldn't complete second game.
Alright, had a great orientation last night, great music, great people, and the madness of all the Saints. Even had people crying. But, I really felt that it was a great pity my ex-class got separated. We were really close. I seriously couldn't bear to part with most of them, especially the guys. Anyway, Jun Zhe came back for the orientation finale. Haha. I was happy to see him, quite some time since I saw him. Hmmm, he was posted to AJ and he never fails to come back to SA with sorrows and agony. He told the few of us how AJ sucked and how he disliked it. I was quite surprised it was that bad. My brother told me I'll hate that place cause' I'm not a mugger, furthermore there isn't bowling. My brother said his friend went there and told him it's a muggers' world and I'll die there. And, true enough, Jun Zhe, my fellow chick-watcher, couldn't stand the "muggy" environment. He even told us that Jing Hui changed a lot ever since he went there. Jing Hui didn't do any work and just slept through the day, as stated by Jun Zhe.
Hmmm, even PITA got osctrasised by the muggers there. Even though I dislike him, but I really sympathise him, cause' PITA said that JZ was the only one who talked to him.
It seems like my fellow Saints are struggling and dying... but, I really hope they'll have the strength and power and overcome whatever difficulty they will face and endure for 2 years. Hmmm, many people say that if you have great company, 2 years will be short, but otherwise, it'll be 2 "long" years of torture.
Sympathies...
Sigh... I really miss the guys from S14. The song High by Lighthouse Family really reminds me of them. We were really so close... Sigh... I can only hope they can settle well where ever they go and that everything will go smoothly for them.
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