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Saturday, August 20, 2005
First things first, I think my EoM sh*t is settled. Wait, before you think zaobao has replied me - they did not reply. And so why is my EoM settled? Reason is that I have found an old article that I have cleanly forgotten about. It is an article that spurred me to do my Preliminary Ideas(PI) and after reading through it, I convinced myself that I'll be able to provide an evaluation that is of certain standards, and the EoM is officially settled(though I have not done a new one yet :p).
Hey hey, short post, gonna' complete Complex Numbers tutorial, revision, EoM before coming back to re-post. :D
Monday, August 15, 2005
I can't believe it, my EoM is rejected because the article I evaluated is written purely in Chinese.
Seriously, it's not the rejection that angers me, it's how information is not passed to me. There were so many lectures, so many tutorials, so many reminders, but none said of anything about the language the article must be written in.
I've to admit it was partly our fault for choosing such a "rare" topic, but we proceeded on because that article of mine was of a great help(now this article cannot be used). To add on, the rest of the ideas seemed to be out-of-reach and ended up being ruled out through a vote.
I'm given another week to search for a new article, and re-do my EoM. I'm considering various alternatives, but up till now, the best idea I could think of is to send an e-mail to Zaobao.com and hopefully they will get someone to translate the article for me, so that I'll have an "Official Translation from a Reliable Source".
Sigh... I guess these things happen.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Good morning! It's a great Saturday morning, and I got up at precisely 0700 hours, with 9 hours of soundless sleep. Physics revision done by 0900 hours, and here I am, typing on my keyboard at an approximate speed of 80 words per minute. Without anymore sh*t, I shall recount on what happened yesterday.
It's obvious I'll always include something about bowling, so here I go.
Went to SARFA Mount Faber yesterday, as usual, after school. Before that, played games on BK's and Angus' mobile phones. Madness. (How I wish I can get over with NS soon, and purchase a 7610 that I really like. Why after NS? Cause' we're not suppose to bring a camera-equipped mobile phone in, so that leaves me with no choice but to persevere on with the 6610 I have with me. It is not that 6610 sucks, but the keys just drive me crazy now and then when they just don't function, especially when there's an important issue for me to tend to, and the damn keys can't work. Alright, I'll stop whining and carry on.) I left at around 1400 hours. I took a walk out to the bus-stop outside Gillman Heights, the condominium Mr Lee is staying at, and took the bus. As usual, the damn bowling alley is so cold. I sat down, cooled down, and watched people bowl. Seriously, I enjoy seeing people bowl and enjoy themselves, cause' it makes me think that bowling is a fun game and I can have fun while practising. So, anyway, I changed out of my uniform, took out my balls from the back of the alley and the locker and proceeded to bowl. Hmmm, as usual, started out with a 2-step approach, since I've not been bowling for a week. 5 frames down and I started my full approach. Haha, it was a little crappy at first, cause' I'm really rigid, and can't seem to relax. But, things were getting better for the second and third games, until something cropped up again - I was pulling my shots. Crap, so haha, 4th and 5th games were bad. I tried loosening my swing, but things were still bad. So, I thought, it must be my trail leg. Haha, 6th game better, cause' it was really my trail leg's fault. I was kicking it into the air, instead of putting it on the floor. So... after loosening my swing and straightening my trail leg on the floor, I bowling the 7th, 8th and 9th game with much better results. Haha, 188(nice number!), 194, and 199(F'n wasted, a big four on the tenth frame! And I chopped one pin off!). If I can post these results for A'Div, I'll be jumping out of the alley.
There was nothing interesting except for something that happened to a group of my classmates. They skipped GP tutorial, haha, blatantly and daringly. One of them escaped DC, cause' Van Lee said she was sick. Haha, the rest all perished, cause' Mrs Goh asked Jayce, who's a Christian, and I suppose can't lie. Haha, sad case. They were asking me if I want to skip it, but anyone who knows Tuck Foong, knows that I won't skip ANY lessons. I only skipped one lecture during first three months, but can't remember which subject. Haha. Anyway, hopefully they won't get anything worse than DC, hopefully, as a CG rep, I'm really concerned for their welfare. :D
Ok, that's about all, I'll share a little something. :D
I was dead beat, and barely had the strength to lift my legs up the steps of the bus. I dug my wallet out from the pocket at the back of my pants and tapped it against the mechanism that looked a little like Tamagochi and proceeded into the bus.
There wasn't any seat that was totally empty, which means I've to share seats, which I am not comfortable with, because I do not like getting too close to a stranger. It just makes me feel insecure, unless it's someone who looks less dangerous, pretty and gives me security. However, I was in luck, there was an empty seat beside a girl who looks safe! I looked down, smiled a little to myself and took bigger steps in case someone snatches that seat from me.
"Yes!" I thought, after I got the seat.
I took a deep breath in order to calm myself from all the excitement. As I inhaled, I could smell that girl sitting beside me. It's not perfume, neither was it deodorant and I could not identify the smell, but it really makes me feel like I'm in heaven, and every breath I took, I seem to be floating towards her; just like a drug, I was really getting addicted to her smell. I began taking bigger and bigger breaths, inching closer and closer to her...
All of a sudden, she made a move, and I thought she wanted to alight, which brought my heart down to my crotch; thankfully, she was only searching for something in her bag.
"Phew! Thank god!" I said softly to myself, because firstly, she's not alighting, and secondly, she did not realise what I was doing.
She was still searching. And in order to look normal, I took out my mobile phone, and pretended that I was looking up the calendar. I took quick glances from the corner of my eye to check out if she was still searching. From that few glances, I realised she seemed to be panicking, but she looks alluring with that worried look. Suddenly, something made me turn to look instead of glancing. Her eyes were welled up with tears and they were shimmering under the soft evening sunlight.
"Excuse me, can I borrow you phone?" She turned to ask me all of a sudden while I was still stunned. Her voice was shaking a little.
My eyes captured the image of her face, upfront. At the same time, I passed her my phone, and managed to smile a little. Thereafter, I turned back to the front, rewinded the "tape" in my brain to the image of her. Ravishing. Exquisite.
A jerk from the bus snapped me out of it, and realised she was calling her own phone with my phone to see if it's really in her bag; with the other hand that's free, she rummaged through her bag again, and her elbow nearly whacked me without her knowing, but thanks to my spiderman-reflexes, I dodged it.
As her elbow was in the air, she gave me a clear view of her figure. And at that moment, I noticed that she was taking heavy breaths, with her bosoms moving back and forth. I've to admit she is endowed with great assets. Furthermore, her waist is small and due to relativity, it made her bosoms look bigger. All of her is perfect except that I could not see her smile. Glistening eyes, smooth and fair skin and sexy figure - perfection!
"She is really a luscious young lady," I thought to myself.
"Ouch!"
"Sorry!" She responded to me.
Her elbow hit me right on my head as she put it down...
I opened my eyes, and realised I hit myself on the side of the drawer beside my bed as I was turning.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
While I was doing my GP essay last night, it got me to think about the relation between pain and love. The intricacies of love, are something none of us can explain. Some people search for love to satisfy their lustful desires, some were driven by their curiosity, while some are truly looking for someone to spend their lives with.
Please don't probe why I thought about this, you might think I'm sick, but I'm not. I just think too much.
Well, after my first "love" ended 2 years and couple of months ago, I felt the pain of losing someone. This pain was like a motivation sponge, because it sucked up the motivation I had. I was devastated, maybe because it was my first time. Everything seemed like a routine after that. Wake up, study, sleep; but it was all relative. I feel that it was a routine because I used to go out very often with Her and everyday was obviously different, but I realised it was not. It was just the reluctance to accept the loss.
It can never be a routine, because you never have fun doing something that's called "routine". Friends break the "routine". I've to give credit to GSLH.
The main point of this is that the pain I experienced, changed my perspective of many things. This pain brought me closer to my family. This pain made me stronger, and taught me to let go of things. This pain was my mentor, throughout the period when I was down. And everytime I thought of how I've learnt to let go of things better, I remember a story.
This story is about an old man. He was waiting for a bus at a bus-stop, which came shortly. As he boarded the bus, one of his shoes fell out of the bus, and the bus driver who was oblivious to his reactions, drove off. The next thing he did surprised a teenager on the bus. He threw the other shoe out of the bus towards the bus-stop.
The teenager then asked, "Why did you do that, Uncle?"
"What's the point of keeping one of the shoe when it's useless and meaningless? I can never get the other back. It'll be better if I threw away the remaining one so that someone who needs shoes can have a pair instead of only one," the old man explained.
Usually, if the above scenario happened, he/she would have sweared and screamed at the bus driver. I know this story might sound stupid, but, it's just what comes to my mind.
Anyway, as I was saying, the pain taught me lots of things. With regards to this, this pain allowed me to better appreciate my family, and what they did for me. Now, without this pain, would I ever appreciate the bliss of having a caring family? No. Without this pain, will I be able to know what's family love? No.
From this, it reminds me of Newton's 3rd Law - with pain as the action force, and love as a reaction. Why? Reason being that without pain, you'll never know what is love. For example, his/her close family member pass away. Naturally, he/she will cherish and love her family members even more. I'm really doubting if he/she will ever love anyone if she did not experience the pain of losing someone.
It is true that some people appreciate their family even without going through the pain, but I hardly see anyone like them.
In my opinion, and probably my conclusion, this pain acts as a catalyst in bonding of the family.
*Disclaimer: These are just my thoughts, if offended, please tag and tell me. =)
Anyway, I'm going off for a lunch buffet at Quality Hotel soon. Haha.
By the way, I wish that all my friends will be well and may their paths towards success be smooth sailing.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
It's piping hot outside. The cold air from the air-con was really cooling and relaxing when I stepped into the room. I just reached home, after having lunch with my mother, sister, aunt and cousin at Sizzler at Toa Payoh, and after shopping for what seemed ages.
The food there was great. It has been a long time since I had a salad buffet. The fruits were great, especially the watermelon. The vegetable salads were mediocre, but, still pretty alright. I had a cup of cappucino, normal coffee, and 2 cups of English breakfast tea, since it's free flow, but I've to admit, I think I went overboard, cause' I totally forgot about the caffeine, until my cousin told me to stop cause' caffeine ain't good for health. I stopped after the the last coffee, and drank water instead.
After lunch, as usual, they'll shop, and I'll be waiting. Hmmm, sometimes, I really wonder what's so nice about shopping even though many ladies have shopping as their hobby. Hmmm, I was getting impatient maybe cause' of the scorching heat which was really unbearable. I popped my ear phones on, the ear phones that served me real long. I bought The Newpaper even though I knew I'll be wasting 70 cents on advertisements instead of real news. I fanned myself with The Newpaper while waiting for the ladies. I predicted that they'll take around half an hour, and I was totally right.
Thankfully, I got to go home first.
The door bell rang, and I went to get it. It was a girl, probably my age. She saw me and proceeded to smile. That smile that she had had me stunned for a moment because she looks enchanting with it. Her soft, silk-like hair was messed up by the breeze on the outside, but probably because of that, she looked so stunning, with a tinge of cute, kiddish look. My eyes, went downwards, and met her eyes, that are not too big, and not too small. They were brown, crystal-like, and gleaming as the sunlight reflected upon it.
"Hi, I'm from the church opposite," she said. Her lips were pinkish, not too thick and not too thin, just the right thickness I favour. The movements of her lips when she spoke, together with her clear yet soft voice seeemd like an elegant dance with her voice as the music. I wasn't focusing on the words she spoke at all.
She was wearing a white t-shirt, and a denim skirt. The white t-shirt seemed a little too tight, but it made her perfect curves obvious. Not only is she slim, she had assets which were proportional to her size. My eyes continued the scanning, and noticed her slender and smooth legs. Her feet were facing inside and made her look like a small girl as she stood shaking a little to the left and to the right.
"Hello? Can you hear me?" She raised her voice a little, maybe to ensure that I heard her.
"Oh... Errr... Hi. What can I do for you?" I replied stuttering a little.
"Are you free? I'm here to spread the word of god." She seemed a little excited.
"Oh... yes, I'm errr... free, definitely," replying with the best smile I have.
"Oh, that's great!" She exclaimed, giggled and proceeded to open the bible she held on to her chest.
"Would you ermmm... like to have a drink or something... errr... as we talk?" I asked daringly.
She was surprised and seemed to have been taken aback by what I asked; she opened her eyes bigger, with her mouth slightly ajar, with the smile gone. And I knew I had frightened her.
"Ermmm... I'm sorry, but I've to go meet my friend now. I'll come back some other time." She spoke faster than usual, closed her bible, waved, and rushed off towards the lift.
I stood motionless...
I heard a splash, and opened my eyes. I saw the water in the fish tank up in small waves, and realised I was woken up by the splash the Luo Han fish made.
Haha, I can't believe I'm having such childish fantasies at my age. Wtf. Haha.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
With the birds chirping by the window, the warmth of the sun caressing my ass, and the rumbling of the fan, I woke up. I sat on the bed with my eyes closed for quite a while, and finally stood up, opened my eyes and walked towards the mirror. I took a look at myself, gave a megawatt smile to myself, told myself that it'll be a good day, and proceeded to my tutorials.
Well, with the Promotional Examinations drawing nearer and nearer, I have no choice but to complete as much tutorials as I can and carry on with my revision. However, I have an eclectic choice of which tutorial to start first. It's not that I'm behind the lectures, but the lecturers seem to be competing with each other. For example, Mrs Gay completed Numerical Integration, Further Integration, and already more than half into Polar Co-ordinates; Mr David Chong, completed Alkanes, Alkenes and Arenes before even I can complete Alkanes tutorial. Thankfully Miss Tan is giving us more time to complete Vectors(iii), maybe because she realises we're struggling with the FM part of Vectors, but her lectures on Complex Numbers are still... as speedy as before. Even though I can keep up with her pace, but I'm afraid I might have to spend all my holidays this week to complete all the tutorials. Not to mention, I still have to complete what I planned to revise this week. And next week is already so near. If I do not complete this week's revision, I'll be stabbing myself.
Hmmm, I'm taking a break now from the tedious tutorial of Further Integration. I think I can use up one whole piece of lead for just 16A of Further Integration. Maybe I'll stop doing Further Integration and proceed to complete Vectors(iii). I hope I'll be able to complete tutorial 16A and Vectors(iii). I believe I can do it.
Anyway, I was asked to cut my hair by my Discipline Mistress, because she said it is getting bushy. And one more thing, that is to shave my facial hair. My first thought was, "WHAT THE HELL?!" I went to the toilet after that and realised it's only a few damn strands of fucking hair. There are so many people with facial hair so visible she doesn't even need to get close to them to see the hair, and she's picking on me. And after much consideration, I've decide to cut my hair as instructed but... still yet to decide if I should go shave, because I really think I'm gonna waste shaving cream if I'm using the manual shaver, and waste batteries if I'm gonna use the automatic one. Grrr...
Forget it, I'll think about this later. Anyway, I think I'm going to carry on doing tutorials, cause' I don't want to queue to cut my hair.
Before I end, I'm seriously appalled by the behaviour and thinking of that lady. Even though FM questions are complex and confusing sometimes, it's logical. Unlike FM, this lady(I'm kind enough not calling her 'AUNTIE') is definitely illogical, weird, and doesn't trust anyone. Anyway, I'm really confused why I even give a shit to reflect on what kinda person she is. I'm really wasting my own time. To hell with her.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Alright, today was really a great day. Lectures were great, tutorials were great. I really have nothing more to ask for. Haha. Everything was really smooth-sailing, even training. Training was really fun, and I mean really, really fun. Haha.
We started off with bowling with two-fingers, that means without the thumb, cause' Uncle Henry wants us to know how does it feel to bowl with a bent elbow and how to rotate a ball properly. So... ZX, Nigel and I bowled. Haha, we really had problems finding the pocket, cause' of the slow ball speed(we did one-step approach) and the high amount of revolutions. Haha, seriously, if we were given a rainbow-coloured ball, it would have looked like white. Haha. Anyway, that was the first time I had so much revolutions on my ball. Lol.
Next up, we had to bowl with our thumb, and try to bend our elbow just a bit so that we'll be able get more revolutions out of the ball, just like how we bowled without the thumb. Haha, this kinda training reminds me of Math questions with the "Hence..." part. Haha, you use the first part, and apply it to the second part. Haha, enough of Math, anyway, I had not much of a problem, hitting my targets and able to send the ball out. The only thing was that Uncle Henry said that I didn't bend my elbow enough, maybe cause' I'm afraid I might bend too much and control the swing. Hmmm, I should try it out maybe this weekend at Safra, or maybe Friday.
With the completion of this part, we were told to do a 3-step approach, then followed by either a 4-3 or 5-3 approach. Haha, thank god Uncle Adam changed my approach to a 4-3 some time back, and I already got used to it, so this segment didn't pose much a difficulty to me, unlike some people who really found it funny, just like how I felt initially. Haha, but seriously, changing something that you've always been doing is really hard. It's like changing a habit, and it's always gonna be tough. But, thankfully, I started bowling not long ago, so my muscle memory ain't that strong yet. So... I think I was really lucky, because I've already done a 4-3 approach many, many times and really can bowl with it, and that changing anything in my approach won't take much time because I can change the muscle memory easily. Thankfully.
Hmmm, just bowled a few more shots, and they had to shut the lanes off, which really sucks, because I was really having a great time. I've never felt so relaxed in a training, and really enjoyed myself. Hmmm, it's more of a leisure bowling session to me. Haha.
Today was really great man. Anyway, hopefully tomorrow will be just as great. Heehee. I think I'm gonna bathe soon, take my dinner, complete the Comprehension that's due tomorrow, then carry on with the revision that I've planned on my revision calendary. Then, to bed. Tee hee. Anyway, tagboard's finally working, haha. See ya guys.
You are like the shit when I'm having constipation, painful to wait for, but worth waiting for.
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